As we celebrate
the birth of Christ
we look into the depths
of our hearts
and find there
a constant and endless
source of Love, because of Him
May you find peace today
and hope for a better tomorrow

May you be in company of loved ones
and forever walk along side the Angels.

Merry Christmas my friends, and family
and all of you who are now in Heaven
please know you are remembered
and always missed.

May your dreams be sweet
and your lives
a confimation
of DIVINE grace.

 Blessed Be.

Surgery Day

First comes the paperwork

have to have that

then comes the sitting in the waiting room

glancing over at the coffee machine

 you wish you could have a cup

just one small cup

Your name is called

you meet the nurses 

and you answer all those questions

you already have answered previously.

you meet the doctor who is going

to make sure you are asleep 

before the surgery takes place

you are happy to meet this doctor

Then comes the "needle" nurse

and begins the search of a hundred veins

well, maybe not a hundred, but for me

it ended up ...3 tries then finally a good one,

she tapes the needle down, don't want 

it bumped into or messed with in any way

You feel a little sleepy waiting for everyone

you stomach growling...oh if only I could have

just a cracker or something...even a mint.

Here comes the Doctor

smiles and assures you 

nothing to worry about.

Finally you are escorted to the

operating room

Bright lights! Cold room!

so many different tools 

on a table next to you.

 you wonder which will

be used on you.

You are informed, this may sting

a little and then you will be going

to sleep...A Little?

excuse me...Ouch..

A little...o.k.well, seemed like

at least five minutes of burning

but then it's over.

you are off somewhere

while the doctor cuts into,

takes out of, sews up

or glues together

what was open and bleeding

moments before.

So good to have 

not been awake and alert

over all that.

You wake to a nurses' voice asking

are you awake yet? Your surgery

is all over. You slowly open your eyes.

thinking  to yourself

oh come on now

no way could the surgery be done

not yet, just got here.

The nurse takes your vitals

and deems you fit to go home.

Your doctor comes by

to tell you what all was  done

and gives you instructions

which you are totally going to forget.

Thank  goodness for them being written

and given to you to review

or you would most likely not have

the slightest clue what you are suppose to do.

Finally, you are picked up

and on your way home

and all you can think of 

is Why won't my eyes stay open?

as well as wow, am I starving!

nothing after midnight

that's rough.

You get yourself settled down

and once again...slumber land

You awaken to the reality

that the pain meds are wearing off

so you quickly find some more

before you really start to "feel" again.

You swallow your meds and wait

and hope they will bring you relief

as you sip 7 up and stare at the t.v.

not knowing what you are even

looking at you begin to fall asleep 

once more.

Just before closing my eyes

I think about all the surgeries

in the past and I realize how blessed

I am, still able to be here in this world

with my wonderful family

and amazing friends.

The phone rings, message left

wishing me speedy recovery

I think to myself, see? blessed

that 's  me.

Grateful, that also is me.

Surgery over with,

a bit more sleep perhaps

and tomorrow?

not sure. I only know this,

Tomorrow I will be thanking God

for allowing Angels to hold my hand

because I  have not a single doubt

they did...and still do.

surgery day thoughts, Oct. 11th 2012

,

Time is only relevant
if it is spent with the understanding
that everything we do and say
has an effect in one way or another

To waste even a moment
with violence, arrogance
with pettiness, greed 
racism, hatred, gossip
is like slapping the face
of whom many of us
call GOD.

Time is only relevant
if it is used with respect
and gratitude
for within each moment
there is the possibility
to achieve great things
to find our sacred authentic selves
and in others

Time is only relevant
if you do not stand still
within it
but rather move with sincere intention
towards all that is positive
and with the desire
to leave this world
a better place having been here.

Lorrie Salvetti  Oct. 4th 2012

I am amazed
at how remarkable
you really are
each day there seems
something new you say
or you do
that reaches in
and touches my soul

What a blessing
you have always been
and I can't imagine
anything I could love
more than I love you

You bring my heart warmth
you bring my days laughter
and compassion
you make me happy in ways
I never knew before
just being you
doing what you say and do

Sweet Angel of mine
daughter I love you so.


mama  oct. 4th 2012

Angel Of Mine

Your hands once so tiny
my own could wrap around them
now at 18 they are still small
slender and graceful

You are so petite
as I once was at your tender age
and your voice fills my ears
a certain music, unlike any other

when you laugh
my heart skips a beat
and the world seems warmer

Your heart is full of wonder
and your dreams bigger than the sky
as they should be and as I pray they
always shall be

Your spirit is like a wild stallion
embracing your new found freedom like
the moon embraces the earth

Such a glorious light you are
as you shine upon those around you
you are the miracle in my life
and the keeper of my heart and soul.

Angel of mine
from the Heavens you were born
and every day you awaken in me
forgotten parts of myself and bring to life
that which I was not even aware existed or could
exist within me.

Angel of mine
I love you with a passion
that nothing else could ever
compare to.

always,
your mama

Fathers Day

Today we honor the men in our lives
that know that there is more to being a father
then just a biological tie

It is unconditional love
it is strength, gentleness,compassion
it is the willingness to teach and to learn
to be a friend and mentor

It is having a gentle heart
yet powerful soul
understanding the importance of tenderness
of respect and honor

It is knowing when someone calls you "Dad"
it is a blessing , never a burden
it is a gift to win the heart of a child
it is an eternal circle
the heart within the man
the heart within the child
no matter the age nor circumstance

Today we honor the men in our lives
who stand proud and strong
and whom we cherish for their constant presence
making our lives so much richer
Happy Fathers Day to all of you.

Mothers Day

Today I send you a dozen
long stem red roses
from my heart

may you dance with all
the other Angels
and may you feel the gentle
kiss I send you upon your
precious cheek

today may you sing, and laugh
and know how every day
you are remembered
cherished, and deeply loved.

Mothers Day

Foundation

the mansion of my soul

is built upon the bones

of my great ancestors

the foundation built

by their relentless will

to rise above their adversities

like a phoenix rising from the ashes

The walls are solid

decorated by the hands of warriors

and angels alike

there are many rooms in my mansion

where the spirits of yesterday come to visit

and where the doors remain eternally open

for future prophets

seeking refuge from the storm

The mansion of my soul

remains a gateway

between earth and Heaven

the foundation is solid

and blessed.

Beloved

I say it all the time

almost every day

I am sure you wish I didn't

but I simply cannot help myself

I think you are beautiful

gifted,smart,funny,strong

destined to do amazing things

in your life

You are the answer to a prayer

that I made upon a star very long ago

so I can't help but tell you I am proud of you

and love you all the time,

how blessed I feel to be your mom

and that when it comes to daughters

how honored I am , that you are mine.

He

you wonder

what is so special

about him

oh where do I possibly begin

his smile

his laugh

his strength

his courage

his compassion

his loyalty

his creativity

his heart,his soul, oh pretty much everything

what is so special that makes me love him

you want to know?

most of all it is because he is not you

but then that you already know.

You Again

After all this time

you come knocking at my door

around to win my heart

only to break it once more

Just one more time you say

for old time sake

I admit I still love you

but anymore broken promises

I just cannot take

All those old excuses

the mental,emotional abuses

leave me empty and unwilling to take

a chance again on you

I will just watch you walk away

when I don't answer your knock

upon my door

trust me, its best we do not play this

game anymore

so lets just skip

the one more time around again

and we will start where we already are

you know...the end.

Missing you

reaching for the phone

suddenly remembering you are not home

wanting to share the funny things

and the sorrows that life brings

keep finding myself trying to reach you

but having to accept I cannot do so

for you are far away in Heaven and I am still here on Earth

I find myself looking for your smile

aching to hear your voice

knowing I will have to wait until that day we meet again

at Heavens gate.

missing you mom, now and for the rest of my life.

Missing You

When love ends

it is so like a death

cold, confusing, a fact we must accept

no recapturing of that first moment we said I love you

no taking back the last time we said, It is over

We turn and walk away

becoming quickly a memory of yesterday

even when all hope is gone,

it hurts when love decides it can no longer stay

Generation Three

I am my mothers daughter

my daughter is part of

us both...

three generations of women

each so different yet each so much the same

both my mother

and my daughter

are the confirmation of Angels

who I have been blessed to love and call by name

Generation Three

Mother to Daughter The First Dance

I heard your heart beating softly

like a special drum I learned to depend upon

I listened to that beat as I prepared for my time to arrive

diligently I listened to your spirits melody

and it was within the refuge of your womb

that I had my very first dance.

Angel Mother

today I felt you beside me

a soft gentle touch upon my face

swift yet clear to me it was you

in the hallway smelled your perfume

it lingered for only a moment

I closed my eyes and pictured your face

heard you whisper, i am here honey

and although no one may believe me

I have not a single doubt it is so

how I miss your voice

your smile

your laughter

your words of comfort

every day without you is an eternity in itself

I know you are with me

I feel your presence so often

and I am thankful for those fleeting moments

when you return to spend some time with me

sweet angel , mother of mine

I am blessed to be your daughter

I miss you , I love you.

The Locket,the promise

many lifetimes ago
you held me close
as we kissed beneath
the dim rose red lanterns
I searched for your soul
with the eyes of my own
and there I found
a piece of Heaven

with soft whisper
came the promise
that you would return
and I kept that promise
in a tiny brass locket
safely around my neck

With the passing
of each sunrise
and sunset
came the silence of my heart
having found no reason
to speak

On some quiet shore
on some quiet evening
in the acceptance
of your broken promise
two dim rose red lanterns
fell to the ground
and were swept away by the wind

On some quiet shore
on one quiet evening
footprints left so softly
in the sand
moonlight on waters deep
from there drifted gently back to shore
a tiny brass locket
no promise left to keep

beneath the dim rose red lanterns
two souls fell in love
on one quiet evening
on some quiet shore
one forgot the promise
one waits no more.