Friday, June 24, 2011

Angels Whisper

Trust
have faith unshaken


Pray
Believe
in the power of the universe

And in yourself

Reach
up to the heavens
when you are facing the lions

When thunder is at it's loudest
and lightning fiercely strikes

Hear the angels whisper?
Do not doubt you are in their company


Know that you are one of them

Hear them whisper
know that they watch over you

Lorrie Salvetti 6/2011

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

For my Husband

You
are my only love
my hero
not because you try to be
but simply because you can't
be anything less to me

It is no wonder why I love you
it's just the way things are
your love has made beautiful
that which for so long had been
alone and scarred

Abandoned

I have often wondered
if we should happen
to pass one another on the street

and should our eyes just happen to meet



Would you recognize me
...
though we're strangers in most every way

would you father, know me, your child
,
somehow, some way



I wonder...

I try not to, but nonetheless,

I admit I very often do.

Would you find in a glimpse of me

some forgotten, abandoned part of you?



I still wonder,
and often ponder
...
after all these years have past us by

if you've ever wonder too
?


Whatever happened to
that abandoned child
who shares only DNA,
and a name
with you.

Monday, June 13, 2011

armor

I realize
I can not, nor should not
fight my daughters battles,
but admit ,nonetheless, I still wear a coat of armor
just in case she should need my help.

In a blink of the eye
she has become a young woman
and I must continue to learn to give her wings
to fly on her own, but I find it so difficult to do.
I will be diligent in this necessary task
but again I admit...I don't like it.
People have told me over and over again
time will fly by, how very true that is.
My baby is almost 18 now
and before long will venture out into the world
as I remain behind, hoping I did my best to prepare her
and that she will always remember how loved she is.
Being her mother is the greatest honor I ever known.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Grandfather

Very early
every morning
grandfather would rise
long before anyone else

He would quietly walk down
the hallway careful not to disturb
the slumber of the rest of the household

I would keep my eyes closed
pretending to still be asleep
as he stopped to peek in on me

I did this as I knew this time was
special for him and I knew if he found
me awake he would stay to visit with me
rather than continue on his way

After finding me still asleep
grandfather continued slowly down
the stairway and into the kitchen
where he started a pot of coffee

Very strong
the aroma would fill the house
like sunshine
pouring through an open window

After pouring himself a cup of Joe
as he called it
he would step into the den
and start a warm fire

He then would go to the front door
and get the newspaper,
finding it somewhere between the porch
and the end of the driveway

As he sipped his coffee
he would glance up every once in awhile
to see if anyone had risen

I would remain in my room picturing him
knowing his morning ritual so well
like a special fairy tale
I was told and memorized in detail

I could tell when he finished reading his paper
as he would roll it back up
placing the rubber band back around
as if it had never been touched

Placing it on the hallway table
walking back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee
I could hear him open the cabinet

Shortly thereafter, I could hear
the toaster popping up his toast
I could hear him still trying to be so quiet
and thought how very considerate he was

After a bit I could hear
the running water as he washed his dishes
and put them into the drainboard.

When he was finished i would hear
his footsteps return to the den where
he would turn on the radio very low
He'd close his eyes as he sat in his easy chair
feet propped on a cushioned stool

I could easily see him as I ventured
halfway down the stairs
stopping to sit and watch him

I always found him so interesting
his figure tall and slim his features rugged
yet he had such a gentleness about him
His smile was like a rainbow after a storm
always so comforting to me

Grandfather came to live with us
after grandmother passed away
My parents insisted the ranch they lived on
was far too large and lonely
for him to stay there without her
He agreed and this was something
we were all glad about

Grandfather was American Indian
and very proud of his heritage
whenever he would tell us stories
it was like honey from his lips
every word leaving you hungry for more

Each day I would wait
for his ritual to be complete
and then walk down the stairs
and join him in the den

He always greeted me
with a kiss upon the cheek
and I always greeted him
with a big hug and kiss in return
and we would sit awhile and chat
while we waited for the others to rise

I recall my grandfathers deep blue eyes
and as I listened to him speak
it was impossible not to journey within them
able to walk the paths of his life
learning from his wisdom
blessed by his spirit

Grandfather passed away a few years ago
quietly in his sleep and i believe beyond a doubt
that grandmother was by his side

Sometimes early
very early in the morning
I think I hear my grandfather's footsteps in the hallway
while my husband and my children are fast asleep

At times can even smell the coffee brewing
the aroma filling up the house
like an old friend dropping by
it brings me such a comfort

I quietly walk down the stairs to the kitchen
and sipping a cup of "Joe"
I smile and I whisper
good morning grandfather
good morning grandmother
I know you are near me
I miss you
and always, I will love you

(a story I wrote in a dream)

Friday, June 10, 2011

Mirror

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and didn't like who I saw

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and prayed no one else saw me

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and knew no one else saw me

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and didn't care who saw me

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and found very little of myself

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
wishing I could be someone else

Anyone else

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
and began to wonder who I used to be

Who I never used to be

Who I never should have been
and I wondered
who shall I become

There was a time when
I looked into a mirror
feeling there was not much looking back

But eventually
there came a time when
the reflection became far more
than I could have ever imagined

I looked into a mirror and I found
not one, but two reflections

A grown woman...a mother
the other a child...my child

And together the reflection became
a constant confirmation
of the beauty in life and the power
of Gods infinite grace

Through her eyes I see
limitless potential
endless possibilities
the manifestation of prayers
so long ago whispered
in the quiet darkness of night

Dear Lord

Please hear me

Please see me

Please take my hand

Please send me an Angel

And so he did
And I named her Cheyenne

And whenever i look into a mirror
I see a woman full of hope and love
thankful for the many blessings in her life