Wolf Women

As the evening
draws near
she becomes unable
to stay in one place

She is restless 
as she watches the sun set
and the darkness like a blanket
will soon cover the earth

She awaits the moonlight
and is ready to shed her tired spirit
longing to  embrace the endless night sky
with the wide open arms of her soul
She will not whimper
she will not go quietly down
she will not deny her needs

She wraps the warm breeze
around her bones
and she howls loudly
...her voice echos and her heart races
there is the sound of drums in the distance
she begins to dance
twirling in circles
lifting her eyes beyond the stars
her hands reach out and seek to grasp
each brilliant light above  her

the Wolf is her spirit guide
a mixture of calm and focus 
strength and courage 
She does not wander far from home
for she has no need to escape
only to feel the air upon her face
and the ground beneath her feet

she is in awe of Mother Nature
perfect and eternal
she is only one small rose
in a garden of millions
her heart beats harder, louder
like thunder and she is one with the wolf pack
as she closes her eyes and runs, faster and faster
until she is unable to run any further

sweet wolf spirit
once again has entered her world
taking her from mundane and totally human
obligations and necessary acts of ones life
and for just a little while
she is free...wild and animal
without worry without conditions, rules
without expectations ,demands, she is not perfection
she is not looking for approval or attention
she is simply "being"  
she howls and she dances and she runs free
her mind is far from places that demand proper
and strict obedience ...she howls she growls
she claws, she is at peace with the earth, and her 
sacred spirit
Night is still now
she returns to her refuge
to her pack
her hearts' chosen path
...she will always be a little bit wild
she will never be totally human
she will forever seek a balance of the two worlds

wolf woman
human woman
spirit and soul dancing under full moon light
as time stands still
to watch her

There is the sound of drums beating 
and of others who howl as well
there is no fear no sadness
no rules
only common ground
and generations of creatures such as these
who tell stories by fires burning
who chant and dance and embrace the earth
who climb mountains
and swim in cool rivers
and watch ocean waves come and go
...powerful are the ones who do not ignore
the wild one within them
knowing its a balance that should be sought
...we are sacred
we are blessed
we are many
we are one
  Blessed Be.

My Daughters Heart

I began to pray for you
so many years ago
knowing somewhere
you existed 
that somehow you would
find your way to her

It became my greatest wish
that when you found her
she would look into your eyes
and see not only "you"
but herself...in all her true beauty
in that moment understanding
that she was worthy and deserving
of someone very special

I knew that you would be searching
that you needed someone different
from those you have known before
someone who would see the strength
of your spirit and the gentleness of your soul


I long ago wished upon a star
for the blessing of a daughter
and when that wish came true
I knew the greatest of blessings
and the deepest love that I would ever know

I wanted for her to find her hero
her best friend
her companion for life
not just someone to spend time with
but to share "for all time" with
someone who would take her heart
and forever protect it
forever cherish it

all the years my prayers have included you
 finally here you are
the one who is exactly what I imagined
all that I believe is what will make her life complete
and so I thank God for you
and i thank you for finding her 
and for your love that you have chosen
to give to her

I already love you too
how can I not feel this way?
For you are the one and only
to have held the key 
to my beloved daughters heart. 

Tears of the Heart

Sometimes
no matter
how much
you love someone
or they love you
something 
happens and suddenly
the one you want to share
everything with
is like a stranger to you
or you to them

It is a deafening sound
that of a heart that cries
tears not always seen
but nonetheless they fall
and as we struggle to find
a way back "home"
to eachother
we understand
that even if we do
it may never be quite
the same

It takes so much more
than what we first believe
in order for love to survive
the things that life can throw 
in its path
we find that we are able
to hold on only when there
is mutual effort and hope
when the tears fade
we are left either with
a new path that we can walk 
 without worry of the  ground 
giving way or we realize
there is no longer a reason to stay together
and far too many not to.

When the heart cries
the tears fall like rain
into the soul
and when the tears fade
we will have released the hand
of the one we love
and they ours
or we will find ourselves
holding more tightly then ever before
...take not lightly
the tears of the heart.

Whisper

When the sun slips away
and the moon and stars
fill the night sky
I wonder where you are
at that very moment
and what you are doing

So many miles
between us yet I believe
that love is able to cross
those miles simply by a single thought
a memory, a song, or a mothers'
soft, simple whisper
I love you .

Each parent
must learn to let go
when their child
begins their own journey
it is by far the hardest thing
I have ever had to do

letting go while all the while
holding on , wanting her never
to doubt that I am close by
and that I know she is ready
to use her own wings now

I close my eyes
and can hear the flutter
of those precious wings
as they pass by
and my heart is comforted
for the love we share
is forever
and no measure of distance
can change that fact.
 aug. 3, 2013

Heartbeat

Heartbeat

The first time
I held you in my arms
placing my ear to your chest
listening to your soft sweet
heart beating
I knew I was listening
to most beautiful melody
that I had ever heard in all my life
and no others would ever
compare to its beauty.

Sweet daughter
I cherish you
and I love you all the way from
Heaven to Earth
and back again

mama.   Aug. 3, 2013

First Home Together

Oh sweet daughter
and oh yes, you too
sweet son in law to be
one day...(right? right)

this is an exciting day
you moved into your very
own place together
and now the fun begins

There will be moments
when you find that you 
just a moment or two
of "space" from one another
and so you must learn
not to take it too personal
sharing a place is wonderful
but you still want to maintain
your "individuality"
also, a little bit of time 
not spent together 
will make the time you do spend
even better

you dont have to wonder
far away, just into another room
or take a walk outside
and when you do think about
the two of you
of all you have been through
and of your future dreams
and plans
when the moon is full
gaze upon it and make wishes together
always remember
to support one another
count on eachother
respect, honor, cherish
all important to hold onto
especially when the days may be hectic
when you may be short on cash
or one of you left an empty milkcarton 
in the fridge or you lose your keys
or forgot to do some necessary "household" chore
When life gets hectic
and yes, it will, even in "la la perfect land"
just breathe, just pray , thank God for all your blessings
especially the blessing of LOVE
which is the foundation most important
and that turns a place to live
into a place you both think of as "HOME"

Enjoy this brand new adventure
laugh at all the little things
like the table you make out of  an  ironing board, lowered
just enough for the two of you to sit side by side
or the pillows you place in your living room
which you will call "the couch"
the book shelves that perhaps are pieces of wood
on top of a few cement blocks...you can paint them rainbow
or decorate them with beads and things...you will use your 
imaginations and you will make somethings out of nothings 
and they will be awesome to you,not because they are perfect
or expensive things from some department store, but because
each thing,every thing,will be yours...yours together.

so, do some dancing
do some singing
eat some cookies, after the top ramen dinner
make plans, watch movies, rest in eachothers arms
and oh dont forget, call your mom 

Congrats on your first new home together
may it be blessed with good friends that visit
good memories that you hold close to heart forever
may God send Angels to keep you safe
and may laughter and joy and love be the paintbrush
that you paint your home with.  

Dear Daughter, Dear son in law to be( yes, yes)
I send you best wishes and all my love

BLESSED BE

A Moment in Time

You were unexpected
You were a comet headed towards earth
ready to make your mark
you were the distant star
that  wishes were made upon
the glowing full moon
lighting up the dark sky

You were the start of a melody
lyrics being placed on fragile paper
all around you we gathered
our thoughts our prayers
our joys our fears
our smiles
and sadly, our tears

A delicate butterfly
landing for only a brief
Moment in time
then chosing to return
to higher ground
to Heavens gate you returned
leaving us feeling sad
and empty
and yet blessed nonetheless
for you were here, yes,
you were here
For a Moment in Time
you touched our lives
and although we never met
you are an Angel
we will never forget.

Bless you sweet little one
rest in Gods loving arms
Only a Moment in Time
but you were already loved
and you will always be .


For the moment
for the promise of a next time
thank you precious one.